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Suddenly thought of...
In the past, we(my whole entire family) will always look forward to Christmas, because we will always be having a really wonderful time together. Dancing, singing, jamming, laughing, talking, drinking, eating... I really missed those wonderful days... It's all gone. D: Problems problems &more problems came, &now we're like separated. We're not as together, but I know that we all longed to have those times back again. Some have gone, &now, we don't get to have those fun &exciting feeling when Christmas comes.
Now everything have changed. It's not that I don't like the way it is now, it's just that I still want that kind of happy feeling when Christmas comes. Many things happened, &no one wished that it would happen. Christmas isn't the Christmas I knew anymore. The Christmas I knew, we went to each other's house &we really enjoyed ourselves. The most memorable moments then was when my grandfather danced with my cousin, we were singing out hearts out, drinking, &everyone enjoyed that very day, I can remember that moment vividly. Some may think that I'm making up stories, but I'm not.
This Christmas, I hope that I would enjoy it, even though it's not complete without some of my relatives. I miss my dearest cousins who went overseas. I miss them dearly. But all I can do now is think of them &sometimes cry. Why can't we just get back together, no problems, just have fun...I miss those days, I really do. Whenever I see people having fun with their family, preparing for Christmas, I will always remember those wonderful days... I can't do anything, but cry. I don't know why.
This year, we're celebrating Christmas overseas. 'Cause not everyone is here. D:

I know that all families do have their problems, but...ai, I keep telling myself that it's still going to be that Christmas that you hope for, but it never came back. That lost feeling never did came back D: Even while I'm typing this, I feel like crying, or I should say, I'm already crying. I feel so useless, as all I can do is cry. We share laughters, we also share problems, we had fun times, we also had our unhappy times... We fear that Christmas is coming, we fear that the New Year is here. Because, all the problems come during that period of time. I'm seriously scared. I don't want to see anymore unhappy faces, I don't want to see people crying, I don't want problems to come. I want my happy times back! I seriously do... DDD:
I still can remember, when I was still small, I always waited impatiently for Christmas to arrive, as the next day would be my brother's &my birthday. We will always want to have Strawberry Shortcakes, 'cause it's a delight. We get dressed up in our suits &dresses, just to have out pictures taken, we wanted to look at our best. But as time goes by, we didn't have the mood for it anymore... Even though I always try my best to make every year's Christmas the best, I will never ever ever ever forget that time, that moment, that second, we were all together, taking photos, Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, &the other days of Christmas.

I miss those days, I really really do.
Where is the Christmas tree?
Where are the presents? They are getting lesser...
Where are all the wonderful people?
I miss it, I miss them all! DDDD=

Thanks Sherina &Azra for giving a surprise party, I will always remember you people.
&thanks everyone, who have been there continuously to support &to cheer me up, I will always remember every single one of you. :D

Terence: Okay, practice more! You can do it de! I want to see you go finals again :D JIAYOUS!

Will you be there?