Hohoho,

Merry Christmas!
Christmas will never be the same as when I was younger. Every year, it's a different Christmas. Lesser or more people, it will never have the same atmosphere as last time.

Let me go back in the past for awhile...
I still could remember vividly how it was like. 3days of celebration for Christmas Eve + Day + Birthday. We would celebrate it at my Grandma's place, Aunt's place, and my place. Everyone of our houses has a Christmas tree with presents underneath it. And my place one would be the biggest celebration, 'cause we'd jam, sing and dance all night (until the police came over to our place 'cause the neighbours complained). It was so. Awesome. When everyone was going home, there were presents for every single one, including guests of course. Steamboat was from the start to the end of the day (like a eat-all-you-want buffet). Even though there were problems back then, those three days would cover up everything. I really really missed those days.
I remember how me and my brother would wear like a couple when we were young and take photos (If you ever come to my house, you'd see the photos). Roller blading, swimming, cycling, picnicking, camping as a big family.

Slowly, as I grew older, as we all grew older, things were different. Things were very very different. Our families had more and more conflicts, more problems came our way and all those fun activities that we always do together slowly fade away. Separate ways? Something like that. No more jamming together too. Lesser or no outings together. Is it because when we get older, we don't like to spend time together anymore? I don't think so. Maybe it's just that people change.
I've been through so much in this family and I know that we will never go back to the old times. It's sort of, impossible already. We grew further apart from each other. Even after my grandfather left us, things got worse. After sometime, things got better and sometime after, it got worse again. I guess times have changed. People change too.

I've never gotten to see my grandfather in Malaysia. And my grandmother in Malaysia left us too. Now, I'm left with my grandma here. I don't wanna lose anyone else. All I hope is for everyone to compromise and just forgive and forget about those mistakes each of us has made. I just wanna spend this and every end of year with smiles on everyone's faces. Smiles that are real. Smiles that come right from the heart.

And I remember predicting that I was gonna fall sick on Christmas, that prediction came true. My nose is getting worse by the second. I used like 2 boxes, 3 packets and 2 rolls of tissue today. That's a whole lot of tissues. I'm killing trees as my nose dies. And I just opened a new box of tissue, gonna carry it around wherever I go.

Sorry to all my friends who have asked me out on Christmas and New Year. I really wish to join you guys too, but I'm really sorry. Hope to see all of you guys soon. I miss you guys... Love me kay? ♥

Presents are wrapped, I think I'm gonna sleep soon. Tomorrow's gonna be a long day. I'm praying that everything will be better as time goes by. I'm praying that...

It's about giving and forgiving.
Merry Christmas everyone!
xx,