Lightheaded.

>Patrick: Haha, you look better in cartoon! Stay cartoon-fied! &ELMO SAYS HI! :D

>Charmander: ELMO LOVES CHARMANDER &PATRICK TOO! IT'S ELMO'S LOVEEEEEE!

Wednesday, after school, went to Swensens with class mates, they ate, and I watched 'cause I was gonna meet Catherine awhile later for lunch. After awhile, went to meet her and her OGL and to Pizza Hut where all her classmates are there. Summarizing time! 'Cause my head hurts. So, after Pizza Hut, went to play Pool at AMK Hub with them, made new friends. Had fun, enjoyed. Then for L4D2 with Catherine, Beng and Sheng Han(?). Is that his name? :/ Anw, thank him for sending me home, really appreciate it, thank you. Oh we had dinner at Macs, chatted and chatted. Wonderful day. (:

Thursday, after school, met Catherine and Charlene at Koufu, chatted awhile, Charlene went home, met Beng, and we went to buy waffles! Finally I ate our school's waffle! Omg. Hahaha, love the crunchiness of it. Anw, chatted awhile with Beng at Koufu, and he had to go off for his lessons. We then bused to Tampines, slept throughout the bus ride. Then took 39 and homed.

And believe it or not, I had the feeling that it was gonna happen today, and it really did. Don't know what I'm talking about? You don't have to know.

Anw, if you do read my blog...

All I can say is, I'm really sorry. I hate doing this. I really do. And believe me, I know how you feel and I don't feel any better. You think it's easier for me, then I guess you don't know me well enough. It sucks. It sucks big time. You don't know, you just don't know. But it's alright. Friends forever? I hope.

Do you know how difficult it is to cry silently 'cause you don't want anyone to know that you are crying? Do you know how tiring it is to hide your tears from everyone? Do you know how to fake a smile without anyone knowing that you are faking a smile? Do you know that I'm so good at hiding everything that even my mother don't know how that I cried even when I talked to her face to face just after I cried? Do you really even know me? Do you really care for me? Do you really think that this thing doesn't affect me at all? Do you know how difficult it is to be so fake sometimes just to not let anyone else know that I'm not okay? Do you know?

I got used to it after the first time people think that I don't feel a shit about things.

&I don't like to be fake. I just want to be myself.

After everything, I really wanna thank Catherine and Beng for being there for me.

Catherine for everything. Being in the center is not easy, I know. I've been there and done that. Really thank you. You're the only one who truly knows how I feel at times, and knows what's on my mind. Knowing you was the greatest thing that ever happened in my life, seriously. And I know, that our friendship will never have an ending. You're just like my sister, my soul mate. Like you say, soul mate is one soul in two bodies. Life would be very different without you. Thank you very much. You made a very big difference in my life. Thank you.

Beng, though I just got to know you, thank you very much for trying to make me happy and smile. Thank you for today, thank you for giving me advices and saying that you'd always be there for me. Thank you.

I really need a hug right now, and all I can hug is my Tiggers. But it's alright. Cat, if you see this, can I have a hug after school?