Chat Logs.

Read some chat logs, reminded me of the past, how happy I used to be. Well, it's all in the past. Not saying that I'm not happy nowadays though. I am, but not as much as last time. Don't know why, maybe it's all these changes in my life. Even though last time, I had little friends, but life was simple and nice. Now, though I have more friends, life isn't as simple as it seems. People may think that I'm happy, always seeing me with many friends around, but it's not always like that.
Ah, chat logs. Whenever I've got nothing to do, I'll just read them again and again and again. Sometimes they make me smile, other times, I'll just stone not knowing how I should react to it. It's never gonna be the same again. Hah, moving on.

Blah.
Supposed to study, again, I stoned. MTV-ed the whole day. Whose Line Is It Anyway?, that show really can make you smile and laugh like some retarded. Watched some videos...got bored.

Grandfather's much better now, he's much more likable than who he was last time...
But, they say that the doctor's gonna put a tube in his throat. It's gonna hurt. For awhile. They say that there's water in his lungs. Gosh, hope he'll be alright. He still remembers his birthday. He says he wanna celebrate, go eat together and all.
I miss him.

Mid Years are ending soon. I'm not even giving it my best. I didn't even really study for any subject. I'm not taking anything seriously. Can someone please wake me up? O level's nearing... Argh. Hate the thought of it. I seriously don't wish to take O levels this year. Can they like postpone the O levels? Hee. I'm crapping shit. Anyways, POA's gonna be another F9. I miss my A1s for POA. Gosh.

Grandmother's staying over at my place. Father's playing songs on the guitar as usual, singing away. Mother's sleeping...


Mother never did believed that I had night studies/ studied with my friends or at my friend's house. I doubt my father believed. 'Cause both of them are the same. Ah, why should I care? It's been this way for years. They never believed me. Got used to it, I guess. Hah, Mother says I've been acting weirdly nowadays. Am I? I've just become more quieter at home. Arguing with them is not what I do anymore. I got sick of it. Anyway, it's not gonna help in any way either. It's just gonna make things worse. So, forget it. Even if they are in the wrong, I'm just gonna shut up and stone. They'll shut up soon.

Ah, okay, enough of all these. I think I'm going off now.
Goodnight &Sweetdreams.

Tell him I need him
Tell him I love him And it'll be alright
Tell him And it'll be alright And it'll be alright