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Like the song goes...
'It's too late to apologise, it's too late, yeah.'

So, I guess, this time I'm serious. I don't think I can forgive and forget anymore. Even though it's not like me to get angry with someone for a very long time, but this is exceptional. I guess. I'm sorry. Maybe I need more time to forgive and forget, maybe... I think there's too much lies in my life, nothing seems to be true anymore. You guys, my friends, ... It's not like me, I don't know who I am anymore. Everyday, I just stare into space and all these bad memories keep flashing through my head. No more good memories, just bad... Like what C said, why can't Scientists make something useful, like a machine/thing that can take our brains out and wash away the bad memories, leaving the good ones behind, so our life would not be soo miserable(maybe mine only.). There isn't really a song which can describe how I'm feeling right now. Every now and then, having headaches, vomiting, coughing, sneezing, ..., even though I don't look sick. 'It's only the appearance, it's worse on the inside...', now you get it?

That reminds me of my results. Bottom 30% of the whole Secondary 3 cohort, what have I been doing?! I studied, for the first time in my life, I actually put in soo much effort in this EOY, and this is what I get? It seems to me like when I don't really study, I score soo super high, but when I study, I score soo super low(lowlowlow). Tskkkkk. Ah, I know I have to study more next year, to get into the school of my choice. Butbutbut, I don't think I can do it anymore. I think all my goals/targets are just my imagination...I'm never gonna reach it. Oh well, I shall just do my best next year and hope that I won't die.

Oh great, having headaches again. fcuk. Ahh, okay. I think I better go off now. Going out with parents. Hope I won't keep thinking of all those...(you know.). Kay! Goodbye people of Earth!

P.S/ Incase anyone reads this and asks me to go to the Doctor's, read below.
I'M NEVER EVER GOING TO SEE THE DOCTOR'S EVER AGAIN. It never helps me in recovering.

My tears run down like razorblades,