Back for good? Not.

I don't know why, but I just feel like hugging someone/ something right now. Okay, I think I'm weird. )':

No mood at all today. :/ Just stoned throughout the whole day. What's there in life for me to look forward to? Can I rewind? I'm so tired. Everyday of my life is fucked up. In school, teachers. At home, everyone in the house. So irritated by them.

Oh, today's Dress Down Day. Supposed to go school in home clothes, but, whatever. Don't feel like it. Lessons as usual, boring. A.Math, I didn't bother paying attention. Mrs P asked me questions, I just sat there and ignored her. I'll hate her forever, like totally. Anyways, Recess. Didn't feel like eating but, still ate. Retarded. Bought burger for J. English was boring. Yes, I'm the most not focused person in class. I get distracted easily. Ah, whatever. Then, after school, was supposed to go for some meeting, but they said no need already. Whatever. Went lunch with C, Darren, Damien, ZhiWei and Calvin @Tmall's Pasta Mania. Then went back to school for English Test. Anyhow-ed through the test. Was super tired and mood-less. Didn't feel like going for Guzheng. Waited with C. Then later, went up to Music Room for Guzheng.
After Guzheng, went home. Dinnered at home. And nothing else happened. Parents are fucking nagging. Irritated. Especially my mother. Fucking !@#$. I should just die so she won't need to always nag like some @!$#^%ABCDEFG. Save her saliva. Ah, there still Guzheng tomorrow. Can I not go? I'm really very tired. ): GAH. Life sucks. ):

Smses w/ C.
Msn Chats w/ J.
I love them.(:

C, cheer up alright? He'll always be there when you need him(: He won't want to see you sad okay. Be strong girl(: He loves you. So do we. (:

I need a new life. Can I go to somewhere new? Like migrate to some other country? ): I really hate this place. Friends are the only thing keeping me alive here. I don't wanna go home anymore...): I don't wanna do anything anymore. Just stay in my room and stone throughout my life. Staring at the ceiling. Playing back those old songs I used to hear, over and over again. And just tear when the past starts flashing through my mind, all those happy, good memories. I loved those days. Where did it all go? Now there's nothing left. It's all Used-to-bes. I wanna be alone, but I wanna be with my friends, friends who actually cares.

Goodnight &Sweetdreams.
Dreams are better than reality.

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